Excruciating Agony: My Struggle Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches
It began on a gloomy Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense sensation erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.
The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
Cluster headaches typically start with intense discomfort around one eye that lasts up to three hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually start with sudden, severe pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long symptom-free periods.
What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.
Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.
Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.
Still, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described across history. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Ancient healing records suggest unusual treatments for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk cures.
It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only officially recognised by global headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.
In 1998, researchers released the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.
Despite such advances, identification remains slow. One man's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.
Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode eased.
Official guidelines on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some individuals.
But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the bout determines the approach.” Short cycles with occasional episodes are handled with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.
The national guidelines need revising to reflect a